Oh, I had prayed quickly- "Lord, thank you for my family, I'm so blessed to have them. And please help my friend feel better with her illness. Amen".
Those quick prayers are fine and good. I'm not knocking them. We need to be in constant contact with God throughout our day- praying quickly and often is good for us!
Many small prayers throughout our day keep us in touch with the Lord.
Sort of like how you may not stop and talk to a friend for hours at a time, but, you text them a sentence or two throughout the day to keep in touch.
But a text to a friend now and again is not enough. You will be in the dark about many things going on in your friends life and you will not really understand her heart, unless you specifically and intentionally carve out time to really get to know her. To have long conversations and share eachother's hearts.
That is what I needed. That is what I hadn't done for several days.
I'd quickly spoken to God throughout my day, but I hadn't prayed kind of prayer where the time just flies by because your heart is so wrapped up in the Lord...the kind of prayer that, when you are finished, leaves you feeling like you just poured your deepest feelings with your very best friend.
That is what I needed so desperately.
I try, when I pray, to follow the example Christ gave for us (The Lord's Prayer) by first praising the Lord and thanking Him, followed by asking for God's will to be done, then humbly asking for the things I need or want, and finally asking God to forgive my sins and be with me to help me turn from sin in the future. Following this example from The Lord's Prayer helps me to stay focused.
As I lay in bed, I prayed. It could have been an hour or two, I don't know- I just know I was pouring my heart out, sharing everything that was inside of me, talking and talking and talking to Jesus as my best friend.
By the time I was "done" with my prayer, I felt the most incredible peace wash over me. I felt God's calming presence, and I knew the He was listening to His child. And talking to my savior must have been just the thing I needed, because as I finished my prayer, I immediately and easily slipped into a peaceful slumber.
How many times must we toss and turn in our beds with the worries of the day haunting us, until we realize that we are not alone? Prayer is SO necessary to our hearts and minds.
My grandparents always had a little plaque on their wall that said, "Have you prayed about it?" As a child and teenager and now an adult, it was always a good reminder to me that if I was worried about something, the very first thing I needed to do was pray.
As you go to bed tonight, I would encourage you to remember to pray. Don't pray as a routine, or as a ritual that must be done with certain words and certain timing. Purpose to end your day with a heart-to-heart conversation with your best friend.
Not only does He desperately long to hear from us, but, we SO need that time with Him.
I believe that you will find yourself feeling lighter, sleeping better, and enjoying a sense of calm you didn't have before. Prayer is good for the heart, the mind, the soul, and the body.
Sweet dreams!
I will both lay me down in peace, and sleep: for thou, Lord, only makest me dwell in safety. -Psalm 4:8